Album Art by Stephen Chavez - Photo By Mario Castellanos
Bent
music and lyrics: shayna
i kneel down and say
get me through another day
was safe when i was strong
my music was my man
i put it first and then i ran
i'd lose just to win
still i'd let it all go
leave the star at the show
cause i'm seein’ differently
now that you're with me
i know you'd never ask me to
give it all up for you
but i'm seeing clearly
now that you're near me
just got back from where i've been
took a look deep within
not sure if i like all i've seen
this mirror's playing tricks on me
all things beautiful and bent i find
it's not much, but it's mine
has kept me quite alive
still i'd let it all go
leave the star at the show
cause i'm seein’ differently
now that you're with me
i know you'd never ask me to
give it all up for you
but i'm seeing clearly
now that you're near me
Try
lyrics: shayna, music: andrew malac & shayna
Ive got a box
and you’ve got a thing
ya thats the difference
and I like to talk about everything
ya thats the difference
well I try
I try
yes I try
I try
You say stop… when we should begin
ya thats the difference
I think free is a contradiction
ya that the difference
you say look… and I see
ya thats the difference
you say god… and I say me
ya thats the difference
well I try
I try
yes I try
I try
goin’ round the world to find the balance in all things life brings
for you and me when we are empty
so gather up your beautiful and raw imperfect beings
and face the mirror and thank thee
you say bitch when I am strong
ya thats the difference
are you weak or are you wrong?
well?
well I try
I try
yes I try
I try
yes I try
I try
and I try
I try
go’in round the world
Undone
music and lyrics: shayna
stop telling me I'm wrong
cause it don’t feel good anymore
don’t say you’ll stay, just find your way out the door
long ago now it seems
still its not easy starting from nothing
in this battle with my beast
I must release these…
crazy little messes
talking past present tenses
im building down fences
let me stop making sense
cause I am coming undone
interrupted by the muse
im feeling stuck and I am broken
dont you know hey haven’t ya all heard?
I am the perfect white token
come on girl I need you now please try
Pricilla’s passing out her patience
daddy, daddy teach me how to fall…
yes can ya do that from your station
crazy little messes
talking past present tenses
im building down fences
let me stop making sense
cause I am coming undone
well I must release these…
crazy little messes
talking past present tenses
im building down fences
let me stop making sense
well I must release these
crazy little messes
talking past present tenses
im building down fences
let me stop making sense
cause I am coming undone
cause I am coming undone
let me dance till I am restless
cause I am coming undone
#16
music and lyrics: shayna
still i can't find a way
to figure out why we stay this way
who we are, what we do
does it all come down to this
a simple me and you
so we pray in our way
we pass the time
and try to find our way through
so we go 'round with the world
with you, right here in the center of our lives
after all was said and done
you were there to say it's alright
so now we try to say good bye to you now
humbling and troubled, we stumble
to the scene in disbelief
yeh she screamed and cried he was the best part
he was the best thing
#16
he wants to hide, she runs to him
for a little comfort and a grin
i come apart and turn away
seems we lost forever in a day
who we are, what we do
does it all come down to this a simple me and you
but now he sees, he's got his wings
they were always there, but he was just so unaware
how far he could fly
so now we try to say goodbye
humbling and troubled, we stumble
to the scene in disbelief
yeah, she screams
and cries he was the best part
he was the best thing
#16
(song for grandpa)
LAUGH & CRY
music and lyrics: shayna
How do you do this?
Can you show me how?
Man I love you, but I don’t like you right now…
Somewhere back in time
Someone lost the deal
And we blame them for how we think and feel
I can barely see the man I thought you’d be
Where you goin? Where you been?
Sometimes I get lost in…
This world thats big and blue
But it can be small too
So go on and laugh, ya go on and cry
If thats what you feel inside
Somebody hurt you
Well I was left here too
I think we should stop and look at all this beauty
I think its our duty, to forgive, so we can live
This precious thing called life
Somewhere back in time
Someone lost the deal
And we blame them for how we think and feel
I can barely see, the girl I thought I’d be
Where am I goin? Ya where have I been?
Sometimes I get lost in…
This world thats big and blue
But it can be small too
So go on and laugh, ya go on and cry
If thats what you feel inside
Someone back up time, so I can grab the wheel
And not blame you for how I think and feel
Ya, how you think and feel…
From here where I stand
Its hard to see your man
Back on up so I can see
Blame it on her ya, blame it on me
This world thats big and blue
But it can be small too
So go on and laugh, ya go on and cry
If thats what you feel inside
Beautiful Mess
lyrics: shayna - music: shayna, willie aron, mike meltzer
so you ask me how I’m feeling
yet this derives from no particular meaning
I am bound and awkwardly I’m found
still falling from the inside
I can see this beautiful mess you brought to me
theres no other place that I wanna be
sitting here while you adoringly stare
yes I am hopeful without a doubt
so when I trip about the weather
or the reasons why and how long you stayed together
1,2,weeee ooops baby makes 3
still you said it was always me
I can see this beautiful mess you brought to me
theres no other place that I wanna be
sitting here while you adoringly stare
cause I am hopeful without a doubt
I can see this beautiful mess you brought to me
theres no other place that I want to be
sitting here while you adoringly stare
cause I am hopeful without a doubt
hopeful without a doubt
hopeful without a doubt
hopeful without a doubt
Josie
lyrics: shayna - music: carlos gonzalez & shayna
josie was a girl
from a simulated world
didn't know how to fit in
so she'd hide it
she put a gun up to her head
and then she said hey bang i'm dead
saw the kids on TV do it
so she tried it
and she says,
hey, hey what do you say
gotta get home, gotta make the change
hey, hey she won't try to fight it
she just wants to be a part of now
she stands alone and screams out
josie was the one
yeah, you know she's so much fun
got the car and bought the star on the boulevard
she wore her pants down on her hips
she lost her ass and bought some tits
with all this i really think she could get far
and she says,
hey, hey what do you say
gotta get home, gotta make the change
hey, hey she won't try to fight it
she just wants to be a part of now
she stands alone and screams out
i'm number one
it's so much fun
i'm on the top
i won't come down
hey can't you see, everybody
it's you, it's me, it's josie
josie like to be
everything but fifty three
lived on TV sets, the mall and her balance bars
she got a gig at the local gym
yeah letting all the young kids in
cuz' she felt just like them in her heart
and she says,
hey, hey what do you say
gotta get home, gotta make the change
hey, hey she won't try to fight it
she just wants to be a part of now
she stands alone and screams out...
21 Hopes
music and lyrics: shayna
i look around the corner
i see you lying there, tired to the bone
but i won't call you lazy, no not today
you're finally home
you're beautiful
yes you're beautiful to me
i'm searchin’ for that holy grail
a fairy tale
i've got 21 hopes a day
i'm comin’ so hold on faith
i know it's late
can you hold on for one more day
it's two o clock in the morning
you're finally coming in, burned out from your day
i can't wait to see you shinin’
the colors that you bring are light enough
just my luck
you're beautiful
yes you're beautiful to me
i'm searching for that holy grail
a fairy tale
i've got 21 hopes a day
i'm comin’ so hold on faith
i know it's late
can you hold on for one more day
She Goes
music and lyrics: shayna
could this mean we’re only passing time
just cause she’s lost in him
doesn’t mean she’s lost all of her mind
seemed a good habit for awhile
he was the judge and jury
and her past held present like a trial
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she knows
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she’d really like to know
Im sorry you saw the different as differences
and I’m sorry that there’s space beyond 6 inches
I’m sorry that this toad became a princess
I am not a mr, so let me be a mrs
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she knows
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she’d really like to know
I cannot be convicted
and I’m all out of weakness
I wish for us insurance
so we can cure this sickness
and we can find our way back to love
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she knows
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she’d really like to know
ya there she goes
turning into someone that she
turning into someone that she
turning into someone that she know…
Perfect
music and lyrics: shayna
Through this universe I like to roam
Between you and me we’re not alone
You lift me up Ill spin you round
Ill be your up, when you’re down
Ill be your up, when you’re down
So leave the flowers in your hair
And forget everything from here to there
And tell your monsters to beware
Cause right now you’re perfect
When tears run dry just laugh a lot
When all those things you said but never thought
Have pushed you down in your confined space
Hiding the man behind the face
Ill be your up when, you’re down
So leave the flowers in your hair
And forget everything from here to there
And tell your monsters to beware
Tell your monsters to beware
Na-na-na-na-na
So leave the flowers in your hair
And forget everything from here to there
And tell your monsters to beware
Cause right now you’re perfect
And Ill be your up…
And Ill be your up…
When you’re down
You are not alone
And in the time that it takes
You are not alone
For you to get back in your place
You are not alone
And when your world is spinnin’ round
You are not alone
Ill be your up when your down
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone